Happiness is addicting

Today my friend asked me if I "ever felt like I was alone?" I told him that yes, in fact most of my life felt like I was completely alone. That no one cared what I did and that if I messed up no one would be there for me. And just as I told him this I was explaining to my friend that in student government we took stress tests and I scored 126 points higher than the most extreme stress level. My Taylor Swift playlist ended and I switched to my party, hip-hop playlist just as our conversation shifted to talking about how carefree our lives would be when we could finally drive without a screaching mom in the passenger seat, and just a permit sitting in our wallet. And as we discussed our inevitable future we forgot about college and work and grades and the scares and horrors of growing up and focused on the parties and friends and carefree nights soon to come. And I became elated with the idea of being permenantly happy.
The one question that we seemed to continuously be answering even though no one had stated it was, what is happiness? We kept saying how excited we were for the day when we could all be in the car, wind on our faces, hair blowing everywhere, looking beautiful, music blasting, food being devoured, and the feeling of the car wheels breezing over the pavement as we raced towards a party. Is that happiness? Is make up and hip-hop lyrics the key to being free and happy? Or is this just a false happiness? A cover up? A drug?
Happiness is addicting. Weather it's false like an infatuation with another that brings butterflies and smiles, but ends with shattered hearts, broken promises, and emptiness, or it's the true pure feeling within your soul that awakens who you are and frees your spirit it's the one thing we all strive for. Life fullfilment is up for everyones own interpetation, career, love, kids, education, they can move us forward or stunt our growth depending upon many different variables, but friends, real relationships with others, achievement, celebration and true rich happiness is no doubt the answer to everything, the purpose and meaning of life.  The one thing that we can't get enough of, the one thing that all our money and time goes towards is happiness. But most of us don't know what that is, we put money towards materials and objects that have no meaning, we put our time towards making that money or trying to get a better education so that we can get a better job to make more money. History is supposed to teach us, and yet we can't see the fact that the present is hitting us right in the face with a lesson of it's own! Money is not happiness! Partying and material things are not happiness. Living in the moment is happiness, being fully present and engaged in everything that you do is happiness. School is there to teach and educate and the only way to ace that test is to fully learn, process, apply, and enjoy the subjects being presented to you. Work is there to make money but the only way to advance in your career is to enjoy the task that you're doing and every motion and action that goes along with it. Parties are ment for false fun and enjoyment, but to be responsible and surrounded by the ones you have real connections and relationships with is to be truely happy. People may look at a car full of teens and say that they're just being young and will grow out of it and realize that parties are frivolous, dangerous, and not good for you. But really I hope I never out grow out of sneeking around and breaking the rules, then screaming and squeling and every sound of a car pulling up or footsteps down the stairs, I hope I never outgrow the feeling of butterflies as the boy in the hall nods and winks at me, I hope I never outgrow dancing around to a steady bass and spinning until my hair whips my face and the world falls out from under my feet, and I hope I never out grow that moment where I throw your head back so far and laugh so hard that an irrepressable snort escapes my mouth and my eyes wrinkle at the corners.
So what we're addcited to happiness? So what we live our lives carefree in a car full of clothes, make up, Chic-fil-a, and giggling girls? Live life! It's addicting to be alive and happy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XM-awdgZ_8w&feature=BF&list=PL521DBE7268178466&index=98

Thank you Kaylie for giving me this song and opening your house to us, thank you to da krew for giving me true happiness, an unbreakable bond between sisters, and a regret free life.